Holy Cow!

First off let me start by saying that my bleeding/spotting has stopped. I talked to me RE about it and she said not to worry. I went in for my first beta and as expected I got the call that I am in fact pregnant. When I asked for my count my RE took an odd tone and told me that she did not know the exact count since the girl that runs my labs was in the process of diluting it. Whatever the heck that means. She put in a request for the nurse to call in my Lovenox injections and scheduled me to return for beta #2 on Wednesday. As today passed I could not help but wonder what my beta count was. So I decided to call my RE's office and ask. I started my conversation about my injections since the pharmacy had not called me to confirm the prescription like they normally do. And then I quickly asked oh and by the way what was my hormone count from this mornings beta to which the nurse replies 1188. I could hear her giggling in the background as I sat in silence. It took me a good 30 seconds to take it all in and then I responded isn't that kind of high. Why yes it is she chuckled back. We ended our call and since then I have been in freak out mode. Not that I would not LOVE to have more then one baby but with all of the meds that I have to take just to successfully have one child now I might have to worry about more then one. I am going to try to keep my freaking out to a minimum. (Or at least until I have my first ultrasound.) I am going through such a wide range of emotions right now. But for the most part I am just really scared.