Changes

So much has been changing in these past few weeks it's getting alittle overwhelming for me.

First with my Peri moving and me having to switch to another Dr in the practice.

Second was my due date change. Although it was only moved up 5 days I am starting to feel overwhelmed. Especially since my primary OB confirmed the 3 week early induction when I saw him on Tuesday. I feel like time is just ticking away. I have so much to do and not enough time.

Third is my sister moving to Tennessee with my nephew. I have not spoken about this at all because I haven't wanted to confront the fact that she's leaving me and moving super far away. I guess I have no choice but to face the facts since the movers came yesterday and she started driving today. My nephew is going to stay with my parents for 2 weeks while she waits for the furniture to be delivered and gets situated. Not getting to see him all the time is going to kill me. But for the next 2 weeks I'm going to pick him up every day from day care and suck up as much quality time as possible. We might even skip a day of daycare and have a fun play day.

Fourth change is the house hunt. We have some offers out and if all goes as planned we could be out of this house before the end of June. I'm super excited about moving into our own home but I hate moving and I know it is going to be miserable being pregnant and over 100 degrees outside.

Fifth is we are looking for a new car. Benny (my car) is not big enough for a family, and although that car is my baby I know it's time for a change. Having a sporty car was fun pre kids but I know it will never work once Gage is here.

And finally just the change of having a family is starting to freak me out. What if I'm not a good mom. I know I'm a good mom to Molly but she is a dog and lets be honest I can't do to much damage to her. But a baby on the other hand, so many things can go wrong. I was not the best of kids especially when I hit my teenage years. What if my kid is worse then I was. Oh gosh I would be in for massive trouble.

Am I overreacting?

A friend of Patrick's is having a baby with his wife. This will make baby number 2 for them. There first is only 2 years old and is a boy, and the one on the way is a boy as well. The wife is not the most friendly of people, and I have tried on numerous occasions to befriend her since our husbands use to be such good friend. But she never reciprocated, and I gave up on trying. At the time there first child was born they decided to have a co-ed baby shower since the wife really has no female friend other then her sister in law and well that's pretty much it. Patrick attended the shower while I was out of town for work and in his excitement spent over $200 buying a bunch of stuff from there registry. No biggy since they were his friends. Two years later we have not been invited to ANY of there son's birthday parties and Patrick has pretty much lost contact with the friend. They speak at most every 3-6 months if that.

Well yesterday I went to check the mail and saw an invite to there baby shower. It completely pissed me off. 1. Because I think it's kind of greedy to register for gifts and have a baby shower when this is your second child, and they are so close together in age. And 2. Why would you invite me to your shower when A) your not my friend and B) our husbands don't even talk any more. Am I being totally ridiculous?

Update on my grandmother, and what I have been up to.

First I will update the great news on my grandmother. The results on her biopsy show that the cancer has NOT spread to her lymph nodes. While she does still have a mass in her lungs they are not as concerned since it has not spread. The Dr did want to remove the mass but agreed a surgery like that on an 85 year old woman is to complicated. Thankfully the cancer is not taking over and doesn't need to be treated aggressively. So that was great to hear. You should see just how fast a semi good diagnosis has changed me grandmothers outlook. She pretty much automatically went back to her old spunky ways, and I am very thankful for that.

I have been working like a dog these past few day and have just been so exhausted. All I want to do when I come home is sleep. Thankfully the insomnia I was having is pretty much gone, although there are times at night where I wake up and have a hard time falling back to sleep. I am just thankful to be getting sleep so I will just stop complaining. We did purchase the bedroom furniture for Gages room. Although we are still looking for a house to put it into. ;) I'm hoping I can work something out with the bank and just buy the house we are in now. But we shall see! We have also been looking into a new family car, although Patrick and I have our eyes set on totally different cars. We will see who wins that battle. So as you can see there are alot of changes in the making over these next few months and I could not be happier. Now if only I could change where we live for the next few months, this 100 degree weather is kicking my butt!

Due date change and update on Gage

I had an appointment with my high risk OB today to check on Gage and everything went really well. Gage now weighs a full pound and from his measurements the Dr moved my due date up to the 13th of September. They did an echo cardiogram on his heart and said everything looks wonderful. He had a nice strong heartbeat of 158 bpm. As always Gage was all over the place making it hard for the ultrasound tech and Dr to get a good look at him. At one point the ultrasound tech pushed on him trying to get him to turn around and he pushed back like he had a real bad attitude. My Peri dropped a bomb on me that he was moving in the next month to Texas so he was no longer going to be my Dr. I was alittle sad as he and I have been in agreement as far as my treatment and plans for delivery. He did agree to call my primary OB and go over our plan (I guess we will see how well that works out). We did go over the risks and possible complication during labor and I have to admit I am alittle freaked out. I was totally unaware that it takes 24 hours for the fragmin to leave your system and if I happen to go into labor while it is still in my system or god forbid I need a c-section an epidural will not work. We also went over the risk of hemorrhaging during labor and that alone scares the daylights out of me. Although not high I still have a 3 % risk. As if having insomnia for over a week now wasn't bad enough I now have all of this information going through my head.

Florida trip on hold ='(

I was planning on going to Florida for Mothers day to see my grandmother, but was just informed that the idea of me flying while pregnant is stressing my grandmother out and making her shingles worse. It's not the pregnancy that freaks her out, it's the fact that I'm on the blood thinners that has her worried. Since the biopsy on her lymph nodes is this Friday we agreed that I would wait until she gets her results and then we would plan from there. I just hate having to wait. The thought of never seeing her again is killing me. And although I know that things are not going to go down hill that fast. In the back of my mind, I know that there is a risk of her not being around when Gage is born. I just hate this!!!!!!