Tha Husband Song

My father sent this to me today and I got such a great laugh out of it that I thought I would share

(Update) & IUI #2 is complete =(

So Patrick and I had a long talk after his talk with my step father. And long story short he apologized and said that the comment about loosing the baby being my fault was taken out of context. How one could take that out of context is beyond me but regardless I gave him one get out of jail free pass. I'm still not happy about how everything has gone down this week. But I decided to go through with the IUI this morning anyway. My reasons being 1) my 28th birthday is on Wednesday and It is my goal to have a baby before I am 30. 2) I did not want to regret spending all of that money on injections only to give up on the only part that my insurance covers. And 3) Because I want a baby more then anything in this world and after 2 1/2 years of trying I am just not ready to give up. So bright and early this morning I woke up and popped my 2 valium that my RE gave me in order to help me relax during my IUI as to not have a repeat of our first IUI. Jumped in the shower got dressed and off we went. I had some concerns about if I had already ovulated on my own pre HCG because I had some O like cramps on Thursday before I took my trigger but my RE did an ultrasound and confirmed that I didn't. So at 9:30 this morning I was inseminated with 40 million sperm. And now I am just waiting until my O pains kick in to confirm the timing. It's 4:48 P.M. now and so far I have felt nothing! Oh well, I really don't have high hopes for this month but at least I know I tried.

Thank you all for your support this week. You have no idea just how much I appreciate it. There is no way I could have ever gotten through all of this stress without all of you.

Lost

I don't ask for much. I consider myself to be a pretty good wife. I don't complain when my husband waists an entire weekend drinking beer and watching sports. I don't bitch that every Wednesday after working all day that I have to go with my husband to his bowling league and hang out while he bullshits around with his friends and has a good time. I don't even complain when they decide to bowl a few "practice rounds" after and we end up out until after 11 pm when I have to wake up for work early in the morning the following day. All I ask is that the week of my insemination that he cut out alcohol and energy drinks. Now I understand that it is Thanksgiving tomorrow and he will be watching football and wanting a beer. But I don't feel like I am asking for the world just one week. I am so very sick and tired of being the only one that has to make sacrifices. Since we have been TTC I have cut out caffeine completely, taking daily vitamins not including some of the medications I was on before TTC and the ones that I have started taking since TTC, I have been poked and prodded I have had more people dig around in my crotch then any woman should have to endure. I have had HSG's, SIS's, D&C's, constant blood work and ultrasounds, hormones of disaster, I have had to take Clomid and stick needles in my body to the point where my thigh looks like a pin cushion. I have had to plan my life around shooting up. I have not had a drink in god only knows how long and all this jerk has to do is hump a plastic cup. It's fing bulls*%$. And the fact that he acts like I'm a jerk for asking him not to drink this week just blows my mind. Am I crazy for asking this? Am I making a bigger deal out of this then it needs to be? And why when I explain that I do not want the alcohol to affect his count on Saturday he says to me, Amy the Dr said I was a rock star last time I do not think a few beers this time is going to make much of a difference. Besides did I get mad at you back in July when we waisted all of that money and lost the baby because of you. I hung up the phone on him and have been avoiding his calls ever since. I'm speechless, there is nothing he could say to make that comment ok with me. And now I know how he truly feels. That it's all my fault. It's bad enough that I have been feeling like it is my fault but to have him come right out and say it just hurts.

And so the story goes ...

I now have one 18mm follicle on my left side the other two well they were nowhere to be seen. And I have one 12mm follicle on my right side. Where that one came from no one really knows.

Here is what I think happened: I think that the 3 8mm follicles from last Monday got into a fight. One moved over to the right ovary because it didn't want to be around the other two and so it decided it wanted to go off and grow in it's own. With the travel time from moving it missed afew day's that it should have been growing hence why it is only 12mm. While this was occurring the two that remained on the left side continued to fight and one got kicked out of the ovary to never be seen again. Some might call it murder. But I guess we will never know since the 18mm won't talk.

Ok enough of my crazy talk. I can assume that the 12mm won't catch up by the time I trigger on Thursday night. So from the looks of it, I again only have on good egg come time of my IUI. I do intend to keep soaking me feet in hopes that my little 12mm straggler catches up. Oh well what can you do. My IUI is scheduled for Saturday at 9:30 in the morning. DH is not thrilled about getting up bright and early to diddle in a cup at 8 a.m. but he will have to get over that FAST! So for Thanksgiving I get all the fixings with a trigger shot on the side. Fun Fun!

My nephews new car

My parents bought my nephew a walker shaped like a car and it has quickly become his new favorite toy. He is only 8 months old and already a little speed racer. I went to go see him earlier today and had a good laugh at how cute he was racing around the kitchen island honking his horn. It was one of the funniest things I have ever seen. He was chasing the dog and following me around, and when I walked out of the room onto carpet where he couldn't go with his little walker he honked his horn and screamed at me. It was to cute!

Insult to injury

Wednesday is Patrick's bowling night. His boss, a fellow co worker and my step father all bowl together on a league. Since the bowling alley is in a casino my mother and I tag along and go out to eat and catch up with one another. So on Wednesday we did our usual and meet at the bowling alley to decide where we wanted to go. When we arrived at our destination we got to talking about my cousin that lives in Australia. And how he was out in NY visiting his mother (my aunt). My mother informed me that he and my other cousin were in route to Florida to visit out grandmother and how it would have been nice if my sister and I would have gone and meet up with them. The hormones must have gotten to me because I immediately chewed my mothers head off saying that if I would have known there plan I would have gone. It really ticked me off. How the heck was I to know that they were going to travel out to Florida. What am I psychic??? My mother realized that she struck a nerve and immediately changed the subject. But not thinking about what she was saying she proceeded to tell me that my cousin that just had a baby in May is trying to get pregnant again. I excused myself from the table and went to the bathroom to cry. I know that her comment would have bothered me regardless but the hormones make it 50 million times worse. I have been on such a hormonal roller coaster these past few days. I just don't know how I'm going to handle the holidays being this big of a train wreck. I know that most people don't even realize they are saying anything hurtful. My mother had no clue that what she was telling me would hurt me. But what people don't seem to understand is that I have been at this for so long everything baby related hurts. I just need to find the strength to make it through the holidays. After that I can crawl back into my hiding spot and hope that everyone just leaved me be.

Thanksgiving Survey

Thanksgiving Survey from Quizopolis.com
Where will you be eating this Thanksgiving? - My moms house
Will you be watching a game this Thanksgiving? - of course
How long will you spend eating your thanksgiving meal? - IDK 20-30 minutes
Are you worried about putting on weight this Thanksgiving? - No
What do you normally eat at Thanksgiving? - Turkey, cranberries, sweet potato, stuffing the normal stuff
What is your favorite Thanksgiving food? - Turkey
What will you be thankful for this Thanksgiving? - Friends and Family
What is your best Thanksgiving memory? - Last year when I had all of my family and Patrick's family over to eat.
Do you give cards or presents at Thanksgiving? - No
Are you planning on going shopping the day after Thanksgiving? - No if all is planned correctly I will be making a baby that day
Will you be waking up early to hit the sales? - No